I’ve been gone for quite awhile. I’m not really sure what to say about it. I’ve thought about this post a lot. How can I even begin to write about the last 2 1/2 months? I decided that I just need to do it. I need to just write and get it out. I’m hoping that I might be able to help someone else with my words. More than that, I’m hoping that someone else’s words will help me.
I lost my job. My church job. Honestly, my emotions are still quite raw, and I’m not sure when they will heal. At first there were so many questions. I couldn’t understand any of it. Now it seems like there are too many answers. I’m always analyzing and coming up with a new reason why it happened.
This is easily the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I didn’t just lose my job; I lost my support system. I feel like I’m going through a divorce, and Pointe North is my ex. My ex’s family may tell me that they still love me and are praying for me, but I know that they are not really a part of my life anymore. It hurts when I hear that my ex has moved on and is doing well. I can’t be in the same room. I had to move out and run back to my parents. See what I mean?
Well, here it is. My first post-divorce post. I’m hoping this will be a step toward normalcy. Hopefully I will be back to my regular, hilarious-story-telling self again soon.